I have to admit, I am a bit of a ludite.
I don't have a smartphone.
I don't want a touchscreen anything.
I don't twitter.
I don't IM.
I don't Facebook much, if at all.
I don't even blog.
Oh wait! Yes I do. A little. Randomly.
Let's admit it: there just isn't anything that deep or meaningful in the mind of the average human being, and if you check into the mind of the average middle age mom it's even more pedestrian.
"I need to stop at the grocery store, and then at Target, and then I need to pick up Ann to get her to the doctor...oh yeah! I've got to stop at Lowe's and check to see if they have the double sink countertops standard...then I'll go back to get Ann and take her home, and then I have to get home and start the laundry, and then...oh yeah! I need to go to Costco to pick up some berries for this weekend's dessert, and...I wonder if Katie has all her homework done for her class...and then I...I wonder if Phil wants a pie or crisp for Father's Day, and..."
Drivel. Crap...and that's what my head is filled with most of the time. I'm supposed to be having all these deep thoughts and my head is mostly filled with drivel.
Why should I be having deep thoughts, you ask? Uh...two Master's degrees...ordained minister (cue the spiritual thoughts and meaningful music)...licensed professional counselor (cue the understanding look and open body language)...mom of two...married 23 years (cue the harried look, messed up makeup, and scattered mind.)
Yes...I blame motherhood and marriage for messing up my mind. It's a lie, but it works for me. The truth is that my head has been filled with drivel the majority of my life, but it's so much easier to blame my vapid thoughts on the sheer volume of stuff I have to do to take care of my family than to admit I just don't take time to be "deep".
So maybe I'll take a little time here, once a week or so, and try to think deeply. With any luck this will chase vapidity away and my mind will fill with lofty things and I'll achieve wonderful things for humanity.
Or I'll at least have a chronicle of my insanity that will be a convincing defense in court if ever I need one.
Blessings!
